When you’ve nothing left

You’ve nothing left to lose

Drink it all away

And block every response

Press the fuck it button so many times

Until the mind finally combusts.

Have you ever seen the rain

Regret from things

Left unsaid and done

Haunted in the nighttime

By the ghosts of the past

The demons that never sleep

No matter how much we slay them

Love still Bru’s everything

Jack and Sally always

The future is yet unwritten

Ultimately because

Quaedam enim in sempiternum

Have you ever needed someone so bad

Five years passed

Since life changed

Yet so many things never change

I’ve loved you since the moment we met

I’ll love you till the moment I die

The need will always be there

No matter how deep we bury it

The love is stronger than ever

Never an hour goes by

Without thoughts of you

Doors that are closed

Can always be opened

Things that seem broken

Can always be fixed by those that know how

What’s done can be undone

Souls that seem lost

Can be saved again

The reality better than the dream

A dream that can never be bettered

The pain a worst nightmare

That recurs at will

No matter how many sleeps

No matter how much time passes

The same two smiling faces

Still stare from my phone screen

Some things will never change

The only thing that really changed

In all the time gone by

There was a time when I’d have given anything

Now I’d give everything

The struggle within

I’ve been struggling for a long time to find words. Perhaps you’ll forgive me if I borrow the words of the diminutive ginger fellow Ed Sheeran

I’m thinking ’bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it’s all part of a plan
I’ll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you’ll understand


Happy New Year to you. I die a little every day we’re not together 🖤🥀