The warm burning sensation washes over
Seductive, alluring, charming and confusing
The lie briefly believed
Be careful who you trust
The devil was once an angel
Trying to convince that all is forgotten
Senses, awareness enhanced beyond imagination
Everything flooding back in 4K detail
Until the blessed moment
It fully takes hold
And oblivion arrives once more

Back to the cave

The sense of deja vu
Several times over
But even more intense
Feeling nothing but numbness
The old cold impassive self once more
But with an Achilles heel
The source of strength
Always an exception to the rule
The soul completely gone
The body intact
Too stubborn
Or too stupid
To know when
Or even know how to quit
Once extraordinary has been tasted
Ordinary holds no interest
Never one to accept silver
All, knowing nothing else
Can ever compare
All, knowing full well
The outcome is forever written
Fates inevitably forever intertwined
Till then, lock it all away
Drink it away
Back to the cave
Become the island once more


I saw that you were perfect and so I loved you. Then I saw that you weren’t perfect and so I loved you even more 🖤

Credit for original words by Angelita Lim


When you’ve nothing left

You’ve nothing left to lose

Drink it all away

And block every response

Press the fuck it button so many times

Until the mind finally combusts.

Have you ever seen the rain

Regret from things

Left unsaid and done

Haunted in the nighttime

By the ghosts of the past

The demons that never sleep

No matter how much we slay them

Love still Bru’s everything

Jack and Sally always

The future is yet unwritten

Ultimately because

Quaedam enim in sempiternum

Have you ever needed someone so bad

Five years passed

Since life changed

Yet so many things never change

I’ve loved you since the moment we met

I’ll love you till the moment I die

The need will always be there

No matter how deep we bury it

The love is stronger than ever

Never an hour goes by

Without thoughts of you

Doors that are closed

Can always be opened

Things that seem broken

Can always be fixed by those that know how

What’s done can be undone

Souls that seem lost

Can be saved again

The reality better than the dream

A dream that can never be bettered

The pain a worst nightmare

That recurs at will

No matter how many sleeps

No matter how much time passes

The same two smiling faces

Still stare from my phone screen

Some things will never change

The only thing that really changed

In all the time gone by

There was a time when I’d have given anything

Now I’d give everything

The struggle within

I’ve been struggling for a long time to find words. Perhaps you’ll forgive me if I borrow the words of the diminutive ginger fellow Ed Sheeran

I’m thinking ’bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it’s all part of a plan
I’ll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you’ll understand


Happy New Year to you. I die a little every day we’re not together 🖤🥀